Update.

Wow… its been a long time since I last updated. Life’s been a bit hectic at the moment.. Relieved that my UniChem assignment has finished, only the printing part left and we’re done. Which reminds me of my Java Programming assignment. Gosh! Java is silly-ly particulate and confusing. Grrr… But I’ve got a programmer to help me finish it up. xD  A lof of midterm exams coming my way, but I can’t be bothered to study just yet. Haha. I’m longing for holiday. Even if its just one or two days.

I’m so glued to my PSP. Metallic blue, I wanted a black but this is all they’ve got. Bec’s got a silver and I’m waiting for her to wake up so we can play multiplayer game! Grand Theft Auto: Liberty City Stories is probably the main reason PSP don’t leave my hand. The game is so addicting you see. Killing all the innocent people, watching their heads pop off, ramming into other cars, shooting the old people…. Fun fun fun!

I’m thinking of re-dying my hair.

      

Two choices.
1st:  A bit blondie, I know but I’ve never had this colour before… Would be a good
        change!
2nd: Orangy like colour. I want striking orange. It think it goes with my skin colour,
         making me fairer *haha* like Snow White!

Show the world I’m no dumb blond? Or.. Attention-getter hair? Choices choices!

 

Ah… College is having Alumni Concert. Its gonna be fun. Ticket sells at RM20. I’ll be there, definately. I’ve seen them practice and the choir was OMFG! Goosebumps and butterflies in my stomach. They are so good, they make me wanna cry.

 

 

Ah, I wonder how Jess know about my blog?! She wasn’t supposed to read the last one, darn! This makes me wanna blush. Haha. Oh, I’m craving for Baskin Robbins! Ahaha, random! Somehow, I love to bug SmarterChild on WLF.. Ish!

Off to lunch..  xD

Dear Jess…

It really slipped out of my mind that Jess is going away to India. She’s probably suffering in India right now. I knew I forgotten something really important that day. It was only on the next morning that I realise it was her birthday I was forgetting. Shit lar man! But when I switched on my handphone, I got a text that I wasn’t expecting at all…

 

“Hi stella i’m leavin 2 india in awhile.u take care n all the best in ur studies.hope 2 meet u in dec.send my regards 2 zmun n other frenz.gonna miz ya.bye.”

 

The exact words keep popping in my head that day. I got the shock and it hasn’t left me yet. I’m sad. I’m overwhelmed. I’m numb. I’m dumbfounded. I’m shocked. I’m everything that words can’t describe. And I’m not exaggerating at all. I texted Vinie telling her that we didn’t say goodbye to Jess but I’m not sure she got my message. Jess left for India already. Tears are already screaming to get out, it takes a lot of effort putting a calm and happy face.

 

My dearest friend left the country while I was sleeping soundly. It must have been hard for her, her best friend didn’t even say goodbye. Last time I saw her was in KFC, chatting for 3 hours straight about everything. Just me, Jess and Vinie like the good old times. =)

And she was stung by a bee the night before. Told a funny but pity story of how her dad got her to hospital, the doctors making fun of her, the late night scares. Haha…

 

I must be really selfish. If only I cared a lot more, I would have texted or see her before she left. I made sure that I remember but in the end, I forgot. Selfish. I hope she could forgive me. I feel so bad already. She’s always there for me and me? I’m just selfish, I wanted all the attention and gave none back.

 

I am a really selfish person. I kinda have known this for quite awhile but I just couldn’t accept that I was. Because I hated selfish people. People who takes everyone for granted, doesn’t care about other people, self-centered bitches. Well, I’m that bitch.

 

I hate me.

 

Jess,

Though you probably won’t read or know of this, I wanna say that I’m so sorry for being so shallow.  I hope you have the bested time in India. Don’t kow tow too much eh?! Haha… I’m gonna miss you too gal. The big grin on your face. See you soon in December. I’m waiting for it and I’m making sure I won’t forget no more.

Karma.

I’ve got myself a new mouse! Weehee… The mouse changes its colours. Its rainbow-ish.. I’ve envied people using mouses like this, and I got my own colour rainbow! Yeay!

Oh.. Today was embarassing… I fell FLAT face on the ground while climbing the library stairs. *blushes* And I even make a great loud boom sound. I guess it was karma. The other day, I saw this girl tripping too… I honestly honestly pity her and I honestly honestly tried my best not to laugh… I did, but I din’t mean it. I didn’t laugh at her face, I know how it feels… But I think its really karma. Darn! And I didn’t even mean it!!

My elbow hurts… My palm hurts… Ego hurts…