Frigging hate everything everyone right now.


Life is just too great. I don’t think I have anyone who can figure me out. Hormonal changes my ass. @#$^@#$  Who needs friends anyways?!


Everyone can just go

ahead and die leave me in



This bitch don’t need nobody else. I don’t need family friends foes. I can handle myself.



Mum went ballistic yesterday night, scolding each and everyone. The dragon within reveals itself and the house has never been more quiet. Its still ok if she’s furious. When she’s furious and bossy its really unbearable. Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned. Jeez!

Daddy’s birthday is this coming Thursday, I still haven’t got a clue what to buy him. When I was little, I used to buy a set of toothpicks for him. Haha.. Its stupid but at least he uses it! Its hard to buy stuff for people who can afford anything they want. Making cards is useless coz he’ll just put it one side. I tried that before. Pssht! Can’t just simply buy stuff too, he’ll scold for wasting him money! Dilemma dilemma…

I really do have insomnia. I’m scared!

Baby Oscar!

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So cute! Feel like punching him to death. Too bad he got a lousy name. Check this out.

Means “deer lover”, derived from Gaelic os “deer” combined cara“lover”. In Irish legend Oscar was the son of the poet Oisin and the grandson of the hero Fionn mac Cumhail. Famous bearers of this name include a 19th-century king of Sweden and the Irish writer and humourist Oscar Wilde. The name Oscar could also represent a revival of an Old English name (meaning “god spear” from Old English os “god” and gar “spear”).

Oscar the deer! Well, he does like to jump. Oh well… Lalalala


*Update* He is no more Oscar the deer. He is now Lion. Brave, naughty and mischievous lion.


Just a quick entry… Got home today from my 4days escape with sis and her friend. Went skating and got a boo boo, went shoping and got really sore legs, went eating and added a few kg there and watched a lot of movie and got an empty wallet. Haha.. I came home empty handed. =(  Bex bought a lotta stuff, so jealous.



He is just the size of my palm and boy is he a wild dog. Looks exactly like a teddy bear. I can’t wait to take more pictures of him. He LOVES to yell too. Its hard to believe something so small can make so much noise. I think he’s afraid of the dark, barely 2 months. We still don’t know what to call him. There are too many choices.

Muffin, pancakes, cookies, coco, , choco, max, tigger, teddy, nici, bunny, december, november…



Staying up yet again tonight. I worry I’m suffering insomnia. My my… Time passes really slow during the night. Everything is so calm and quiet. Every movement and breath can be felt so strongly.

There’s a lot thinking going on in my mind. If only I can put my every thought, dream, hope, question, ideas, feeling into words. I don’t like thinking too much. I get restless and do more thinking.


The days when I automatically doze off at 10.30pm seems so so far away. I wish I can have a good night’s sleep.


Week two of holiday… I’m bored outta my mind lar… I thought this would be a great getaway after all the stress and hardwork. The first week passed by so fast, it was great but coming to the second week everything is a drag. Esther is at home, which of course made things even more unbearable. Babysitting! FOR FREE! Hah, I’m a really good sister. I just hate it when she hugs my psp as if it’s hers’. Ish, jealousy! I had to be driver, on call 24-7 to fetch people home and tuitions. YES BEC, I’M REFERRING TO YOU!

Looking forward to next week’s holiday with Bec and her friend.. Anything is better than being stared by the com.

Ah, went to the funfair with the family just now. It was a good thing, family bonding time. Dad has been quite bitter these past few days. It scares me. Its bad enough I have a dad that looks like lion.. Hehe! The tokens are so expensive, the rides are good but its not worth that much though. Anyhow, it just bugs me that everything nowadays is about money money money!

You need money to have fun! Geez! Life is so materialistic… Give me one thing thats fun and free?! Everything is about money money money. I had this dream where money doens’t exist and everybody works hard for everybody.

fly pig fly
When dream comes true, pigs can fly

Oh… My diet plan isn’t working. Haha. Of course. Mum cooks bak kut teh, chicken rice, sotong, soups etc… Yum yum.