Midnight Crap

I am in serious trouble. I have internship report to write. I am now stuck with only 448/2500 words. I don’t know where and how I am going to squeeze out another 1000+ words. Oh, as if that is not exciting enough… Thesis is supposed to be passed up on the same day. Yippee!

I seriously need a new laptop. Mine is suuuuuuuuuuuuuper slow. Switching windows too fast can make the laptop jam. Temperamental! I also need a new handbag and wallet. My handbag is fugly and the skins are peeling off like nobody’s business. My wallet, well, I lost it and I’m now using mum’s old old old old old wallet. Reason for the so-many-olds is because its been there since I was in primary school!

Ah… I hate myself for being so ungrateful and materialistic. But then, I really can’t stand it. Rome wasn’t built in a day, so I’ll change little by little too.




n. A tendency to consider material possessions and physical comfort as more important than spiritual values.

I hope I will someday break free from this state of mind.

A Cow, A Horse and A little Bit of Walking

Lately I’ve been complaining a lot about my workplace. I complain to everyone and anyone who’s willing to listen. This is so unlike me.

Then, mum told me a Chinese idiom in plain Cantonese.

If you are walking and you saw a cow, ride it. It is better than walking. Riding the cow is better than exhausting yourself walking. But if you see a horse, then forget about the cow and ride the horse. If the horse die, then you have no choice but to continue walking with your own legs

Yeah, I get what she’s trying to say. Each time I feel dissatisfied, I’m reminded of the cow, horse and walking on a dessert. I tell myself, my horse will come someday. And I grumble less, and feel better! 🙂


14th March 2010

It was supposed to be a good day. Had a good start, where I was given the opportunity to again drive Dad’s second-wife where we went to Pavilion as usual. Tried The Loft again and was satisfied although the experience could’ve been improved by having more counters?? Me and Esther had a good time walking around and eating like little kids. Bought myself a new novel and magazine. Happy!

Could have ended the day perfectly if I hadn’t dropped my purse. Dammit!

Had to take a day off from work, minus RM 50 again for this month! Have to make the second police report in my life. Had to renew IC, where my picture is more horrible than the last one. Had to get a new driver’s license. Lost a lot of thing. More valueable than the money itself. Lost my beloved purse.

That’ll teach me for my carelessness. I know I am famous for being careless, and mou sau mei.

I’ve learnt my lesson!!

Change of shift

Today will be the last day of my 12-9 pm shift…. for the month. I am excited! Cannot wait to get back home at 7pm and still have a lot of time to do other things 🙂

Dad’s been pressuring me about my plans after graduation. I am directionless, undecided and have no idea. And scared.

Dead Meat

Dig me a hole and bury me alive please? I rather die…

Why so dramatic? I just found out that my first draft has to be passed up by end of this month. I have soooo much left undone. I just finished with Materials & Methods. I have 3 more chapters to write. They will take me forever to write. One page alone, takes more than a day.

Why oh why did I waste time?!