I hate having to beg to get something done. And being desperate. When it is out of my power to get it finish in time.

And most of all, I hate it when something goes wrong and I’m to be blamed when I have already given it my best. Because it gives me notion that nothing you do is ever good enough. I want to stop trying so hard. I haven’t yet but I feel that I will soon when it is all not worth the effort.

I need some compliment. Some encouragement. Or just a pat on the shoulder, if not just a contented smile. Just to know that my efforts are not all in vain.


Missing something

I’ve got it all, but I feel so deprived. I go up, I come down and I’m emptier inside. What is this thing that I feel like I’m missing and why can’t I let it go. I’ve got the time and I’m wasting it slowly. Here in this moment I’m half-way out the door. Onto the next thing, I’m searching for something that’s missing. Why am I feelin’ like there’s something I missed…. Always… Always… There’s gotta be more to life than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me. Cause the more that I’m trippin’ out thinkin’ there must be more to life. Well it’s life, but I’m sure… There’s gotta be more.

More to life, Stacie Orrico.

Enough said.


Make Mistakes!

“When we were five, they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Our answers were thing like astronaut, president, or in my case… princess.
So make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask again what we want to be… we won’t have to guess. We’ll know.”
When we were ten, they asked again and we answered – rock star, cowboy, or in my case, gold medalist. But now that we’ve grown up, they want a serious answer. Well, how ’bout this: who the hell knows?!
This isn’t the time to make hard and fast decisions, its time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere chill. Fall in love – a lot. Major in philosophy ’cause there’s no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind. Then change it again, because nothing is permanent.”  
I must start taking chances and be brave to make mistakes.